I Love The Way You Laugh

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 01:32:43 GMT

Looooooooooooooong time no talk peoples. NEW SEMESTER, and as corny as this sounds I love all my classes. I have friends in all of them, I got all the teachers I wanted (no crappy ones) AND by May I'm all done everything but religion and english. And how easy are those courses?! Ahhh life is grand. OH, and i'm so excited for Europe!!! *jumps up and down* It's gonna be a blast. Not very many of my close buddies are going but i'm sure i'll meet tons of new people... maybe even some hot guys in time for grad ;) haha. I better get more hours at work or I'm not gonna have enough money to spend over there. Haha, i made a lil list of the stuff i need to buy b4 i move out in August. (Including a digi cam for my trip!)GRAD DRESS SHOPPING SOON!!! It's awesome cause i can shop for my grad dress when my mom's shopping for her wedding dress. I'm so happy for her <3<3<3 *proud* AND i get to be the bridesmaid, by defaul of course but WHO CARES. (It's the least i get for ending up with 6 brothers at the end of the day, lol... so outnumbered) That means i get to stand the whole time holding pretty flowers. :D I love flowers... Ooo here's a cool quizzie i got from my good bud Jess, who ultimately stole it from her good bud Blair. *waves magic wand* tada!

1. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
Speak all of the languages in the world... I love talking :P
2. What is your ideal marriage location?
Hawaii or Cuba... Somewhere tropical and exotic ;)
3. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
acoustic guitar or play the piano better, lol
4. What's your favorite day of the week, and why?
Saturday... get to sleep in, chill with friends... everything good always happens on saturdays.
5. Favorite fabric(s)?
Cotton/spandex... comfy stuff
6. Something you love and hate?
PEOPLE
7. What kind of bedding do you use?
Cotton i guess?
8. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
lmao... what sex life?
9. What's the one language you want to learn?
Any, I'm obsessed with trying to learn languages at the momeny
10. How do you eat an apple?
well... first i gently rub it.. jkjk i wash it n eat it... WHAT DO YOU THINK?
12. What do you order at a bar?
hmm, never been. FIND OUT IN MAY
13. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
I WANTED to pierce my belly button... didn't work out tho
14. Do you have tattoos?
nope
15. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?
Lol... wouldn't get any
16. What's one of the "funnest" things you've ever done?
I've done a lot of fun things :)
17. Do you drive stick?
I barely drive at all, and when i do it's standard
18. What's one trait you hate in a person?
Ignorance, Self absorbancy and Arrogance (lol... that's 3 i know)
19. What's the one trait you need in a person?
Honesty
21. What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
none at the moment, but usually just silver or gold ones
22. Most frivolous purchase?
Haha.. too many to choose from
23. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
Nope, not at all
24. What do you cook the best?
Steak Sandwiches and Potato Wedges
25. Favorite writing instrument?
My keyboard
26. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
Stand out... and i do, lol
27. Do you have anything monogrammed?
Nope, i'm just not that important :( lol
28. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
Sure, why not! Bust out the baggy pants, boxers and oversized t-shirts
29. What's one car you will never buy?
a junker
30. Have you ever done drugs?
hahaha, no... aside from tylenol 3, lol
31. What kind of books do you like to read?
Mysteries, general fiction
32. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
buy a car to pick up my jumbo cheque
33. Burial or cremation?
cremation, and then i'd want my ashes to be released somewhere
34. How many online journals do you read regularly?
Not very many... just the people on my friends list
35. What's one thing you're a sore loser at?
Any kind of competition, lol. I'm too competitive
36. If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
By being a complete and total bitch, lol *shrugs*
37. How many drinks before you're tipsy?
lmao... being honest, hmm. depending on the drink, 2-3
38. Favorite kind of popcorn?
lil bit of butter, LOTS OF SALT
39. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
not at all, it bugs me when ppl r insecure, who really cares?
40. Do you cry in front of friends?
I try not to cry in front of anyone... unfortunately there's just sometimes when u can't help it...
41. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
Energetic, lmao
42. What's one thing you like to do alone?
Watch TV
43. What's the worst thing you ever said to someone?
Lol... i've said a lot of bad things. i tend to fly off the handle. this is why u know when i don't like you :P
44. What's the worst thing anyone ever said to you?
Oh too many things to name, all equally mean.
45. Are you a giver or a taker?
Both, i give and i take and i hope at the end of the day it equals out
46. When's the right time to go to the bathroom in front of your significant other?
Uhm... whenever u need to go?
47. Favorite communication method?
In person!
48. What is one thing you don't leave home without?
Wallet
49. How often do you call your mom?
meh, maybe once a day?
50. What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
Car accident *shudder*

My Poor Lil Head... cries

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 05:51:27 GMT

I have a headache... which is strange because i never get headaches. Go figure. I think it's prolly from lack of sleep because lately i have NOT been sleeping or eating. Yesterday I hardly ate anything and the only time i'll shove something down my throat is when my stomach growls and bubbles and aches enough that i can't stand it anymore. And i'll keep myself wide awake even though my whole body's about to collapse and behind my eyes is just throbbing, and I'll stay up until like 1:00 in the morning "just cause". Why you may ask? Good question... when i find out i'll let you know. And holy crap i've been so stressed out about school, today I almost burst into tears. I spent the first hour of school in the councillors trying to figure out if i could get into university. Even if my marks are good enough i still have to figure out how i'm paying for this education and living away from home. My mom wants me to go to U of A, U of L, or UBC just because they're close enough for her to drive to. I personally want to go out east thouugh... oh well, we'll see how it goes. I seem to have overcomplicated everything and i'm so depressing lately. What happened to cheerful lil me? I'm happy enough for everyone else... almost as if as long as everyone else is satisfied then it's all okay. Except everyone seems to be happy now... but i'm still not quite there. I think what the problem is is that i'm not happy with who i am. I never have been. I look at myself and wish that i could be anybody else... All my friends (the good ones anyways) are pretty, fun, smart, and confident. I'm tired of being so self concious, it's driving me insane. But i just can't help it, even though it's really sad when someone doesn't accept and embrace who they are. The more i think about it though, the more depressing it gets and I'm not going there. Anyways, such an awful day... hopefully tomorrow will be better. If it's not, maybe i'll just not show up at school for a while and say i thought the teachers were striking. Lol... *wonders what they'd say*.

No Regrets :P

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 08:09:43 GMT

What an amazing weekend it has been so far. On Wed I was supposed to go rock climbing, but the plans morphed into shopping instead. Hey, no complaints here, i managed to get two pairs of pants and a dress shirt for 45 bucks. Oh how i love working in retail. :D On Thurs I did my english project and i spent some girl time with my sis in law. Friday was probably the best day so far... i ended up going to the herald for a job shadow thing... i'm going back in december and they're hooking me up with a reporter *excited* this is totally what i want to do. then after that i went shopping with Heather, and then we scurried off to her b-day party which was so amazingly fun. I ended up getting drunk, which was suprisingly fun when everyone else is really drunk and falling all over the place, and then there's ppls that are really not drunk and staring at you as if you're crazy. And then there was the good part of all the hot guys there, including the ones i kinda hooked up with. Fun times 4 sure ;) Lol... everyone thought i was being taken advantage of, little did they know that i enjoyed it. So anyways, after that party i ended up sleeping over at Heather's and woke up this morning at 9... after going to sleep at around 4. I just got back from Jessica's a little while ago since i went there at like 8ish. I'm dead tired right now bcause the last couple of days have been so freaking long. I'll prolly see what's on the tv b4 i pack it in. Tomorrow's a bit of a good and bad day from what i can see. I'm meeting my half sister again but then i'm stuck doing hw after. Eugh... chemistry. Put me out of my misery. But anyways, so far i've had the best weekend ever... and it was like 4 and a half days long. How amazing is that?! Anyways peeps, i am off to watch some quality late night. Tty'all lata!

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 06:01:57 GMT

Well, the weekend is off to a good start... I haven't gotten ditched yet! *looks at the positiveness* Hopefully this'll start a trend. Actually I had a great nite: got home from school early (skipped out on my meeting cause i didn't know where it was), went out and grabbed a bite to eat with friends, and then watched Zoolander for the first time. What a fucking hilarious show. I loved it. And then... i walked home, got in the door and all night i had been worrying about leaving my door unbolted cause i went out my front door and i didn't have my keys so i could only lock the handle. First thing i did when i got home was went to the door to bolt it... only it was already bolted. and my mom and bro have been gone all nite... my mom went to a movie and my bro works from 6-11. So i was TOTALLY creeped out, and i honestly turned on all the lights in my house and went room to room looking around for anything unusual (which is totally unlike me). Well, i found out my mom came home early and locked it, but i still have this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach that something's really wrong. I HATE that feeling because most of the time it's right, so now i have to think about what POSSIBLY could be wrong. Eugh my head's spinning, I think sleeping would be a good choice but i don't feel like packing it in at 11:00 on a friday nite. I'll prolly go surf the net. *waves* bye all!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN~!

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 04:22:37 GMT

Happy Halloween everyone! Lol... everyone from my school is prolly working on their Extended Essay right now... hopefully not, that would be boring. Lol. I finished mine this afternoon after cracking down so I wouldn't have to do anything tonite. Cept now my brother and his gamin friends are hogging the basement. Oh the justice. I JUST FINISHED WATCHING CHOCOLAT. What a great movie, GIRL POWER! That was amazing, the girl that played the main character was so pretty! *jealous* She even got to kiss Johnny Depp, what a lucky woman. *drools* he is so hot in that movie. Anyways, all the trick-or-treaters have kinda stopped coming, which is okay... i get the rest of the candy. *hides the bowl under the desk and keeps eating* Mmmm, chocolate. I should be careful tho, eating all this sugar. I have a cavity and it's been bugging me. I was actually pretty suprised cause i'm a bit of a tooth freak. I mean, the mouth is a dirty enough place, may as well keep your teeth as clean as you can right?Cept my teeth are all groovy in the back so it's prolly for the best that i'm getting it filled anyways. *scared of the needle* you'd think i woulda gotten over it already seeing as how i've had like millions. But they give me shivers whenever i see one. Maybe if i give blood n stuff i'll get over it, i doubt it but why not try? Claire might be coming over at 12:00 for a sleepover, i hope she comes! Even though i have to wake up early because 1) my mom's calling me at 7:30 to tell me when i got a dentist appointment and 2) i'm volunteering at the Beverly center. Lol, if Claire does end up coming over she's gonna shoot me cause i'm gonna make her leave early. lol, i'm such an amazing friend *rolls eyes* Oooo recent updates since the last post. I talked to my school councilor and decided not to drop full ib. that, and i got a 61% on my chem test. *shrugs* may as well just stick it out. If in the end i don't end up getting my full ib diploma because of IB test scores, at least i did my best right? Annnnnnd let's see. All last week was very busy, but very fun. From Tuesday to Thursday i didn't get home earlier than 9:30, and on friday i didn't walk in my door until 10:00 pm. And then i had to entertain my relatives who were staying, so i never went to bed until about 12:00. And 4 hours later i got up to go to work... which i won't be doing for a while because they "suspended my hours until further notice" cause i didnt want to take on the 5 am shift every weekend. Which, of course, means that i need a part-time job to support my hobbies and erratic spending habits. I'm thinking Chapters/Indigo, or a clothing place like Chado or Smart Set or even Garage. I like clothes :) OR i was thinking Blockbuster. When you work there, you get 10 free movie rentals a week! That'd be amazing... every friday have a movie night and stay up watching a million different movies. Those would be some good times. But now at least i don't have to wake up early... the bright side to not working. Hmmm, i'm really confused though... i think i should be DOING something, and i look at all i AM doing and i wonder what's missing. Something is though, but i'm sure i'll find it. All the stuff i'm doing right now isn't really fulfilling, it's more just time taking up stuff that i enjoy of course. In any a case, i'm gonna go bug my bro n see if i can join in his lil x-box game. Lol... he'll prolly say no but why not try? Peace all. *waves*

GODDAM CHEMISTRY

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 04:46:52 GMT

I SWEAR, I AM NOT PUTTING UP WITH THIS ANYMORE. GAY ASSED CHEMISTRY IS FUCKING UP MY GRADES. IF I CAN'T KEEP ABOVE A FRIGGIN 60 YOU KNOW SOMETHING'S WRONG. THIS IS PATHETIC!!!! *ANGRY* Wow... really needed to get that out of my system. 50% weighted unit test tomorrow, i'm terrified. That mark determines the worthwhileness of IB. If I don't get over a 60, I'm quitting full IB. Screw all my hard work, screw everything i've worked for, screw it all. I'll drop full IB and be happy.

Good things about not being full IB:
-No more TOK
-Wouldn't have to take gay assed french 31C
-Would have more time
-No extended essay
-No TOK essay
-Fewer IB exams
-Less stress
-No TOK presentation

Bad things about not being full IB:
-Everything i've worked my ass of this long for would be for nothing
-Since when have i ever given up on anything?
-I won't get a full ib diploma
-I would feel awful about myself... worse than now :P

*shrugs* hopefully i'll make it through... i'd hate to have had all that crap for no reason. Anyways, i feel better now. I'll go in tomorrow for some extra help and try my best =) tis all i can do.

HERITAGE PARK TOMORROW
I am terrified... i don't know why but the last week i have been a nervous wreck. I think i need someone to just take my face and slap it really hard. Nice little jerk back into reality. i was literally freaking out today cause i had to speak for 30 seconds to a group of 10 students... what has happened to me?! that and i thought i'd have to do my english oral today. I couldn't beleive it, i was HYPERVENTILATING. and then chemistry just made things worse... i couldn't breathe. By the end of the day i was so depressed and pissed off at chemistry and myself, i was desperate for something good to come my way. And it did... my mom's b-day was today so i went afterschool and bought her some flowers and chapters gift certificates. I think she was TRULY happy with all the thins she got and how everyone cared so much. It made me feel so good for some strange reason. I like seeing my mom like that =) But it's getting late, and even though i will doubtfully be able to sleep i have to try because i have a LONG day on my feet tomorrow. Night *waves*

trembles i'm so scared!

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 02:48:49 GMT

Oh God, I really don't want to do it... i thought i would be the lady frankenstein person in our lil heritage park project, but i don't know if i can do it. There's gonna be so many people, and i'm not a good actor. *dies* i volunteered to write the script and dress up to mingle... NOT to read the script i wrote. I had a blast working on it, and i still want to participate, but why couldn't i have had a role with no speaking parts to it? *jealous of jessica's gargoyleness* I guess i just have to suck it up as i always do, if i embarrass the hell outa myself, at least i'll have an experience to look back on for what NOT to do in the future. My stomach's sick just thinking about it though... me and improv are not buddies. I think i'm just overly stressed at the moment... i have a midterm coming up (and i'm not doing as well as i want to be doing in social) and i need to work on a couple essays, and i have volunteering, and a piano exam to prepare for, and an english oral to worry about, as well as the problems of everyone else that i can't help but worry about. I have officially decided that i am nuts and should be taken out of society asap. Blah, plus i have gay assed friends. You know, you'd think after bending over backwards whenever they were down or needed a hand they'd do the same for me... they don't even have to bend over backwards, but maybe not being put last all the time would be a great change. *sigh* Life is so amazingly fair. *rolls eyes* now i know u all reading this think that i'm exaggerating but i can really truly tell you that i'm not. One of my best friends told me she wanted to do something tonite... we were gonna watch movies and binge on junk food. I was gonna give her a call when i was done with my project... i tried calling her off and on for three straight hours. Nobody was home. Now, this sounds like it could be a misunderstanding etc... but if it was it wouldn't have happened this often, and it wouldn't have been like a month since the last tiem i saw her. Best friend my ass... i have no friends. My other best friend has weight lifted me to a reject list where i currently stay until everyone else that she considers is better than me can't do anything and she really REALLY doesn't want to stay home alone. *sigh* i hate how people treat me, i have no idea why i think their opinions of me matters so much, but they do. Maybe i should be a hermit, or a nun, or i should walk in front of a moving bus one day. Lol... death by bus. So now my head feels like an overinflated balloon that's about to pop any moment, and my stomach feels like a burning, bubbling acid pool. All because of a project that's become way too much for me to handle, and people that i've given everything to that could care less if i existed. *shrugs* i guess that's just the way life goes... oh well, there's less to miss when i'm gone.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 03:34:01 GMT

This is really cool! Twas recommended by jessy. :)
Here is your analysis.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Lindsay has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Lindsay fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Lindsay has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Lindsay is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Lindsay is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

Something is incomplete in Lindsay's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Lindsay's sexual needs.

Lindsay is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Lindsay is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Lindsay basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Lindsay's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Lindsay slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Lindsay can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Lindsay is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Lindsay is talkative. She enjoys talking and socializing. She may talk when there is absolutely nothing important to say. She enjoys speaking.

Lindsay is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Lindsay will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Lindsay an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Lindsay is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Lindsay is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Lindsay doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

According to the inputted data, Lindsay has a stinger shape inside the oval of her a, d, or c. This might be hard to visualize, but if this little hooklike shape is present, then Lindsay has an unresolved "issue" with strong members of the opposite gender. An occasional appearance of this stroke could indicate a simple "loves a mental challenge" which can manifest in playful linguistic conversations and being attracted to a lover who isn't always available. However, if the stroke is severe, this means the individual has unresolved anger at the oppostive gender - which usually started with the person's childhood relationship with the opposite gender parent (Mom or Dad). If the writer is a woman she will be attracted to strong challenging men. If the writer is a man, he will find the woman who is "hard to get" the most attractive. In a nutshell, people with stingers in their writing tend to have challenges in their romantic relationships. For more information about this "stinger" trait, visit this webpage: http://www.myhandwriting.com/analyze/hlltrt5.html. Remember, it is only negative if the traits occurs often and is quite pronounced. An occasional stinger can be no problem.

Lindsay has a desire for attention. People around Lindsay will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 22:48:40 GMT

Well well well, i think it's about time i updated this journal. So much has happened that i haven't written about and i think it's time i changed that. Let's start from the top... School's going pretty good i suppose. I haven't had a whole ton of hw or anything but chemistry has totally blown my mind. I don't understand it but i'm struggling through. I have a 55 in it right now, which for me is the lowest mark i've seen as a progress report mark EVER. It's quite depressing but i'm sure i can bring my mark up. As long as I get over 70 in this course i will be happy... well, happier anyways. If not, I'll drop it and screw full IB. Besides that i have a gazillion extra curricular things (some dorkier than others) that i'm doing. Because there's so many i'll put em in a list:
-EAG
-Torch
-Yearbook
-Grad Committee
-Mentorship Program
-Rotary For Success
-Volunteering at Heritage Park
-Working
-Rock Climbing
-Piano
-Am hopefully joining Model UN
So that pretty much keeps me occupied. I think i missed one but oh well *shrugs* For heritage park we're recreating the wedding of frankenstein and guess who's the bride? *points to self* should be interesting... i get to wear a black dress, a funky wig and hold some black roses. Then i get to dance around at my reception. Life is good. Just gotta get over my nervousness in front of large crowds. I'm sure i will tho. Jessy's gonna be my flower girl! Yay for jessy. And then i have two ppl behind me making sure i don't run away. *laughs* this is gonna be fun. Aside from all my extra curriculars i'm trying to do as much as i can with my friends, but it's pretty challenging. So many people's schedules to have to work around. Ah well, no complaints. Ooooo i'm so excited, my recent project has been this lil puzzle of the CN tower. The thing is friggin huge, it's like 5 ft tall. aside from that i think i'm missing a really important piece. Lol, hopefully i can find it. *searches everywhere* Rock climbing has been SO much fun. It's great, you get an awesome workout, and i'm conquering my fear of falling... sorta. My arms and legs start shaking if there's nothing for me to grab on to cause i think i'm gonna fall. I think i should try falling and that way i won't be afraid of doing it. Hopefully i'll fall soon. It may also be because i'm doing all these kinda hard walls and i've had like 0 experience. Oh well, one day at a time. It's great tho, so many interesting ppl. I CANT BELEIVE IT'S SNOWING!!! *frustrated* it's freezing outside. This is so depressing, i hope it warms up soon. I have a feeling tho that it's only ever gonna get worse. One can always hope... Back to school tomorrow *whines* i don't wanna go. I like being home doing nothing, just relaxing. Such a rare time. Maybe I'll pretend i'm sick. Lol, i dunno how well that would work but i can always try. Bye for now peoples! *waves*

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 21:29:00 GMT

Jessimuhca's Lil Listy Thing

13 Random Things You Like:
1. Music
2. DVD's
3. Books
4. Reading
5. Jewlery
6. Flowers... so pretty :)
7. Chocolate
8. Writing
9. Stars
10. Friends
11. Online Board Games :( they're not working right now
12. Rock Climbing
13. Horseback riding

Twelve Movies: (no order)
1. Bad Boys I and II
2. Troy
3. Shrek I and II, but II's the best
4. The Last Samurai (sp*?)
5. Raising Helen
6. Wimbledon
7. Bowling for Columbine and Farenheit 911
8. Going The Distance
9. Without A Paddle
10. Starsky and Hutch
11. Old School
12. Enemy of the State

Eleven Bands and Artists (no order):
1. Evanescence
2. Linkin Park
3. Hillary Duff (i don't know why but i love her voice...)
4. Simple Plan
5. Kelly Clarkson
6. Arrogant Worms
7. Weird Al
8. Nelly Furtado
9. Metallica
10. Rammstein
11. Sum 41

10 Physical Things About You:
1. Really, Really thin
2. Kinda short
3. Brown curly hair
4. Green eyes
5. Freckles
6. Straight white teeth
7. Long eyelashes
8. Really small, short stubby hands =(
9. Dimple on my left cheek
10. Really short fingernails. (but i'm trying to grow them out)

Nine Good Friends: (no order)
1. Claire
2. Carlee
3. Heather
4. Jessica W
5. Justine
6. Jessica H
7. Jessica C
8. Kelly
9. Alex

Eight Favorite Foods & Drinks:
1. Anything from KFC hehehe
2. Coke
3. Water
4. Lemonade
5. Turkey (thank god it's thanksgiving)
6. Any kind of meat
7. Pizza
8. Hamburgers

Seven Things You Wear Daily:
1. Earrings
2. Watch
3. Bracelet
4. Necklace
5. Pants/skirk/capris
6. Shirt of some form or other
7. Shoes

Six Things That Annoy You:
1. Ignorant people that think they know everything
2. People that don't listen
3. Kids throwing tantrums and parents who buy them things to make them shut up
4. Bad drivers
5. Work
6. Crazy neighbours who forgot what privacy was when they moved next door

Five Things You Touch Everyday:
1. Doors
2. My keyboard
3. My hair
4. My contacts
5. My closet and it's contents

Four Shows You Watch:
1. That 70's Show
2. The Simpsons
3. Family Guy
4. CSI

Three Celebrities You Think Are Sexy:
1. Brad Pitt *drools*
2. Orlando Bloom... not in Troy, but very hot in Pirates of the Carribean
3. Tom Cruise (is it just me or does he have a really hot voice?)

Two People That You Have Kissed: (the last two)
1. Lmao, Jess and Mariell
2. Jon

One Person You Could Spend The Rest Of Your Life With:
1. *shrugs* no clue

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 04:17:25 GMT

JESSICA!!!! CALL ME!!!! Hehe, it's about tomorrow =) if it's too late to call just post or email me. Ttyl

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 18:51:46 GMT

I have decided that I am extrememly lax with my journal... I feel so ashamed. It has been like forever since I've updated last, and the funniest part is that I'm on this pretty much everyday checking everyone ELSES journals. *shrugs* maybe I'm just stupid... Urban Vibe is coming along so I've been writing a lot for that. Tons left to do though. Oh well, it's fun. Work's pretty OK, I hate working at that damn hotel. But the Health Centre's pretty good. Haha, I get paid to eat ice cream and play games, what a life. I'm going golfing today at abuot 3:30, my second time in like 5 years. lol. I'm sure I'll do alright, but not too good. I have a headache at the moment *sigh* and I hope it goes away soon. I also have such a busy week. Not only do I work constantly (7 days a week) but I have a different friend to do stuff with everyday. It's great, I love the summer. I keep busier than during the school year! And I'm making money too. I've got to go shopping soon, but I hate going with my mom. She doesn't know my taste at all and it bugs me when she pulls all this stuff off the racks and holds it up saying, "how about this?" and i have to tell her no CONSTANTLY. It makes me feel so bad! And of course she doesn't like dawdling and I'm about the slowest shopper there is. I'm really picky and I don't buy something until I know it's exactly what I want. Speaking of my mom, she comes back today at about 12:30. I'm so anxious to hear about her trip! I bet she had an absolute blast. I wish I could have gone too, but I'm not paying 3000 bucks to go on a trip with my mommy. I'll pay 2000 to go on a trip with Carlee though!!! We're trying to figure out where we're gonna go. I think she wants to go backpacking through Europe. That would be kinda cool. I also want to go to Australia, Dominican Republic and Costa Rica. Hmmm, choices choices. Blah, I feel like shit though cause I've only had pop for lunch. Bad idea. I should find something more nutritious for lunch. *ponders* what a good idea. I'm off all!

Mon, 24 May 2004 04:40:18 GMT

As she sits across from me on that old, beaten up couch, I stare into her eyes and see the horrors she has. In that one moment, I realize how scared she really is... it scares me even more. I know I can't help her and it frightens the deepest parts of my being. I long to reach out to her and find that it is only air that I grasp. It's amazing how you can be so very close to someone, yet so far away all in one second. As I look deeper I see past the surface of the pretty, talented, smart girl and into the hell she has made rest in. The drugs, the drunken parties, the reckless moves on guys she doesn't know. The reality that with every cigarette she puts between her lips her dedication to herself slides. I don't know what's more frightening... the fact that she thinks it's okay to pollute her body with toxic waste, or the fact that she's beyond addiction. Confrontation has already ended in disaster... And as we look at each other I see her recent run in with the police. The fear that she just possibly may have ruined her life is evident in her scowl. I don't know what to do with a person I realize I've never even really known. It's been 10 minutes of pure silence between us, and I realize the only thing that I can possibly do now. Support hasn't worked, lectures and talks haven't worked. So as I look into those angry eyes bearing into my mind, I slowly rise. I look right at her until the very last moment when I turn my back on her to leave. It is the step so often taken, by helpless people like myself. Sometimes the only way you can learn from your mistakes, is when they lead you to rock bottom. I slow down as I approach the door, but I do not turn around. I will not see that face anymore. I will not see the pain, the fear, or the stubborn refusal to change. I have left it behind, with all of my cares for a person who never cared for me.

Another Post... Finally

Thu, 20 May 2004 03:03:00 GMT

Yes I know I know, procrastination... I haven't posted in here since EASTER!!! I just realized that. You guys really should remind me when I get so behind. Pretty good week so far. I feel kinda empty somehow tho... I hope it goes away, not very pleasant. I can't wait 'till next week! Only TWO days of school. I have two field trips ALL day long, and Monday off. Who could ask for a better week? Not me. :D AND i have TWO job interviews (Good things must come in twos)... one for a hotel and the other for my health internship. I could be making SO much money. Laptop here i come! It's great that I don't have to worry about University anymore. Oh, and I'm entering this speech thing too! If I win, it's a $1000 scholarship. Which would be REALLY nice. It's about western heritage or something. That's ok, I'll bullshit my way through and make it sound good. :D *excited* I have so much to do, like 10 english thingies, a test tomorrow, a test friday, and i only got 70% on my chem quiz. Pathetic for stuff we did last year. Oh well, what can you do? I really want it to rain! I luv the rain. So sweet smelling, and wet. hehe. FLAMES ROCK AND ARE GONNA WIN!!! I can't BELIEVE we've done this great~! Not that I doubted us, but I still find it amazing! My families bein dumb. Maybe that's cause i luv arguing. Cept my mom's always so cynacle and everytime I get defensive I start to argue more. Then she says I don't give her respect and my bro gets pissed off and says I'm the reason why our family never gets along. lmao. Ya, like it isn't the fact that he's a miserable little ass. Gimme a break. What a kissup. I hate my family, and I can't wait to leave. I know that sounds terrible, but how am i supposed to appreciate them when they're always bein nasty. That just makes me nasty, any fool knows that. I can't take it much longer. Australia HERE I COME!!! lol. Eventually... Omg need some money. Order of purchases is:
-Mountain climbing stuff
-Clothes
-Trip
-Keyboard?
-TV
-Laptop
-Dishes, cups, cheesegrater, can opener

*excited*

Post Bout Me!!!

Sat, 01 May 2004 07:14:00 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!! Love all Around!!!

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 04:59:14 GMT

*Group Hug* Hey guys! Long time no see! I'm SOOOOO glad I'm sleeping in my own bed tonite... 3 days on a rock hard floor with nothing underneath really puts things in perspective. That and seeing your grandmother practically deaf, being eaten away by emphysema at 83 years old and still putting up a good fight on the whole. I feel so bad cause I know her immediate family don't always treat her the best. :*( I know they love her n all, it's just sad when they... o why the hell am i writing this in here. Ahh well, I'll leave it. I'm listening to this song Carla sent me, Why by Avril Lavigne. It's pretty good. :) Makes me want to finish writing that one i started. If i ever do finish it i'll post the lyrics in here. I don't even remember what we named it. Lol, that was quite the conversation trying to come up with it.
Lindz: "How about..."
Carla: "No"
Lindz: "How about..."
Carla: "No"
Lindz: "How about..."
Carla: "No"
Lindz: "How about..."
Carla: "No"
Lindz: "How about..."
Carla: "No"
And so on. Lol. ah well i know i posted it on here for safe keeping... all the trouble it took to agree on it. I have so much math left to do. *stressed* and hopefully I'm goin with claire to da farm on wed. n maybe getting together with Justine, Heather, Jess n Denise on friday. We shall see how that goes. oops, jess can't go she's in Mehico! *Crosses out Jess' name* But ya, n then i wants to do something with Jessimuchla... Hopefully she isn't too busy! n ya, hanging with carla tomorrow. she wants to show me her movie. I hope it isn't VHS cause ours kinda... well died. Neways, i'm off to play monopoly. (Yes i am a dork, n proud of it). Gotta get up early for flyers tomorrow. damn... mustn't stay up late. *mental note* alright well gnight all!!! N Happy Easter To all!

What A Crappy Day, But DON'T YOU LOVE THE JOURNAL??!

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 07:18:06 GMT

Aww, so pretty! I luv the pic. It's not angels, but it's still funky. But is there anyway to get the poem not cut off? i likes it... :) If you can't that's cool. Oh n carla, i feel bad but the little butterfly picture freaks me out. :S *guilty* But u did a really good job *so proud* geez, i wish i could do that. thanks soooooooooooooooo much! *hugz*
Omg i'm so tired. *yawn* but i'm not goin to bed. i'll prolly go watch a movie, then finish up my course, then do some math and read my book. If i'm lucky, then day will come. The lacross game was pretty good, Calgary played pretty brutally though, but even so we still won. YAY FOR FLAMES WINNING AGAINST LA!!! *does a little victory dance* tomorrow i got to meet jessimuchala for lunch n shopping and then tomorrow night me n carla chill. On sunday tis flyers and math and hangin with claire and carlee. What a good weekend! I deserve it, i've been working my ass off. My temper's been really short lately, i feel terrible about it. And when i feel guilty it just makes it worse. For instance: all da ppls i don't like (and the number is growing) just really shorted my fuse quicker. I'm not saying I'm a patient person, but more patient a lot of the time. Not with those ppls tho. They drive me crazy!!! I hate ppl that r all caught up in themselves, or just plain annoying, or think that they can insult everyone else just cause ppl insult them. Which sucks cause if u wanna insult them back at a different time n other ppls are around they think YOU'RE the rude one. Go figure. *frustrated* I dunno, there's just a lot of ppl that rub me the wrong way and a lot of them are in my class. lol. Must be that damn ib motivation that drives me crazy... you get good marks and you think ure god. Even though ure social skills suck ass. Yes ppls, i'm really grouchy. Bad day today. Don't know why. Felt really shafted. And my marks suck. well not totally. i just think i earned more. with the amount of work i do and the marks that i earn... anybody would be pissed. But marks are just marks. I gotta figure that out sometime. AND OMG, if there's one thing i hate is being ignored. especially when ure out with someone who INVITED YOU and they barely talk to you. Go figure... Geez. I hate feeling so pissed all the time, but ppl r starting to wear on my patience. There's only so many times you can take every one else's hits before you start to feel the burn. Well I'm off to undepress myself. Gnight all!
P.S. LOVES THE JOURNAL!!! Don't you???!

All I Ever Wanted was to feel the Sun of My face

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 01:09:57 GMT

i juMped iN the river
blAck eyed ANgels swiMMing with Me
All the figures i used to see
All my lovers were there with Me
All my pAst And futures
And we All weNt to heAveN iN A little row boAt

*this is a test

*tell me if you like this or not! be honest i can find other things ^_^

<3

Completely Useless Random Quiz: Thanks Carlosy

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 05:05:06 GMT

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop?: Chado, Dynamite and Smart Set
02. any tattoos or piercings?: Just on my ears... normal ones tho
s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs?: Nope *smiles proudly*
02. what kind of shampoo do you use?: Sex in a Bottle. lol. It's ACTUALLY called "sexed up"
03. what are you most scared of?: Failing and not knowing what I'm supposed to do
04. what are you listening to right now?: Dust in the Wind
05. who is the last person that called you?: Carlee
06. where do you want to get married?: On a Beach Somewhere...
07. how many buddies are online right now?: I'm not logged in
08. what would you change about yourself?: I'd Like to be Carla... so pretty much everything I guess

f a v o u r i t e s
01. colour: Blue
02. food: Anything... it's FOOD. But mostly doughnuts, pizza, Iced Caps, KFC and chips. Oh and popcorn too.
03. boys' names: Jeremy
04. girls' names: Hailey
05. subjects in school: Social
06. animals: I used to have a snail named shelly... but she died. :( *tear*
07. sports: none in particular... my hand-eye coordination sucks

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath?: Lol... no
02. smoked?: I can't... it makes me sick even standing my someone smoking. Seriously pysically ill
03. bungee jumped?: Nah... I'm not one for plummeting 100 ft so my stomach can go crazy
04. made yourself throw up?: No
05. skinny dipped?: No but I'd like to ;)
06: ever been in love?: No, i don't think anyone my age CAN be in love
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yes... of course!
08. pictured your crush naked?: lol *blush* no........
09. actually seen your crush naked?: hahahahahaha I wish! jk. Nope
10. cried when someone died?: Yes
11. lied: Uh, who hasn't?
12. fallen for your best friend?: no
13. been rejected?: Yes, all the time
14. rejected someone?: ya... sometime's u just can't help it
15. used someone?: No, and i never will
16. done something you regret?: I've done some stupid, shitty and pretty mean things sometimes... but i have no regrets.

c u r r e n t
clothes: anything classy n simple
annoyance: ignorant or self consumed ppls
smell: flowers
favourite artist: Evanescence and Linkin Park
favourite group: See above
book you're reading: For school: a day in the life of Ivan Denisovich For me: The Watcher
cd in player: I took em all out.
dvd in player: Bad Boys II

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: When i was hitting Carla at da mall
hugged: Carla
you imed: Claire
you yelled at: My Brother
you kissed: No one...

a r e | y o u
understanding: I try to be
open-minded: Sometimes...
arrogant: No
interesting: I'm interesting to me....
random: I don't like to be random
angry:I try to stay happy
smart: I guess
moody: I can be really moody... depends on the day
hardworking: Yes
organized: Not at all
healthy: Sort of, but i'm getting a cold
shy: No
difficult: No
attractive: Mmm no
bored easily: Not usually
messy: haha, yes
responsible: ya i guess
obsessed: no. i try not to be
angry: *points up*
sad: Only at night
disappointed: Only in myself
happy: For sure
hyper: Lol, ya
trusting: Very... almost too much
talkative: Yes, I'm SO talkative

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: Random ppl that piss me off
slap: Carla *evil eyes*
get high with: No one
look like: Carla
talk to offline: All my friends
talk to online: Everyone! :)

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: Tired
all i need is: Space
love is: what everyone needs
i dream about: random shit

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: COKE
tall or short: Tall

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first: Facial features... then eyes
last person you slow danced with: No one
who makes you laugh the most: No guys i've found yet
who makes you smile: dunno
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: dunno
who do you have a crush on: dunno
who has a crush on you: dunno

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: no
save conversations: ya... that one with me n jess and the sexual interpretations of the emoticons
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: haha, no
wish you were younger: no, i already look 12... how much younger do i need to be?

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: ya
of hearts i have broken: um, maybe a few
of guys i've kissed: none
of girls i've kissed: 1 (don't get any ideas it was on a dare)
of continents i have lived in: 1
of tight friends: 6
of cds i own: too many
of scars on my body: i lost count... but too many

f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
01. do you like filling these out: not really, but i'm bored
02. how many people are you sending this to: no clue... i'm just posting it
03. who will send it back: no clue
04. least likely to send it back: no clue
05. gold or silver: Silver all the way... it's all i ever wear
06. what was the last film you saw at the movies: Starsky and Hutch
07. favourite cartoon/anime: Anime: Princess Mononoke
08. what did you have for breakfast this morning: Nothin
09. who would you love being locked in a room with: A really hot guy... or a rich movie star... or both!
10. could you live without your computer: sure... but i wouldnt WANT to
11. would you colour your hair: maybe... i always wanted to dye it blue but now i don't really.
12. could you ever get off the computer: sure... i get off it all the time
13. habla espanol: some... not enough to answer in spanish
14. how many people are on your buddy list: 39?
15. drink alcohol: on occaison...
16. like watching sunrises or sunsets: I love watching sun sets, no matter where i go. but i'm not much for sunrises
17. what hurts the most: *shrugs* everything hurts

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 23:53:17 GMT

Holy crap I have NOT been writing in here at all. Well that's gonna change. Hope every1's doing well and no lj buddies i haven't forgotten bout u. School sux everyone. I'm failing. Yes i know, it's difficult to imagine but i am. I hope it all works out. I'm struggling along. I can't wait till this year is over. I'm counting the days to Easter. Aww, i Just took this really cute quiz:

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
brought to you by Quizilla
*luvs it* i'm gonna do more... here they r!Lmao, this one's hilarious. (Didn't i always say exotic dancing was what i did on weekends?)

You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
brought to you by Quizilla
And Last one (the best one of all)

Solitude

Your lyrics

How many times have you told me you love her?
As many times as I wanted to tell you the truth.
How long have I stood here beside you?
I lived through you, you looked through me.

Ooo, Solitude
Still with me is only you
Ooo, Solitude
I can't stay away from you

How many times have I done this to myself?
How long will it take before I see?
When will this hole in my heart be mended?
Who now is left alone but me?

Ooo, Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Ooo, Solitude
Only you, Only true

Everyone leaves me stranded,
forgotten, abandoned
left behind.
I can't stay her another night

Your secret admirer, who could it be?

Can't you you see all along it was me?
How can you be so blind as to see right through me?

Solitude
Still with me is only you
Ooo, solitude
I can't stay away from you

Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Ooo, Solitude
Only you, Only true

What Evanescence song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

So I think that's enough on the quiz front. Little update for all my peeps out there. Soooo much hw. I don't know if i can even finish. I ended up cancelling with Carlee... (she seemed like she was busy neways). Had she really minded she woulda complained but i think she booked something over me and wanted to do that more neways. Who knows? Anyways, i'm babysitting tonite instead. I have to finish my flyers, teach myself chem, study math, find facepainting pics, read 100 pgs of a book and analyze them, study for bio and work on my Group 4 project. Sounds like fun don't it? Went shopping yesterday with Heather. That was soooo much fun. I don't know why we don't do things together more often. We went to the mall (i got 2 pairs of pants) and went back to her house n watched movies and ate pizza. I had a blast. Driving for me was cancelled this morning... I have to reschedule. I kinda didn't think i'd be going driving this weekend, i really didn't believe myself tho. Oh well. Volunteering tomorrow for 5 hours. I'm really putting the hours on. I'll probably have 300 cas hours by the end of grd 12. That's good considering i only need 200. Doesn't take long at all. Omg, it's getting late i better go finish up my flyers and grab a bite to eat. I have a lot of work ahead of me. *waves*

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 01:50:06 GMT

Hey all, long time no chat! All's goin well except I'm falling increasingly more behind in math... oh well I'll catch up eventually. I have to go in early tomorrow to write the quiz i missed on Wednesday. Damn strep. But hey at least i got to stay home in my pjs all day eating ice cream and other cold stuff while curled up with a nice blanket. :) Ahhh, who doesn't love sick days? This whole weekend really sucked... the only fun thing i did was hang out with Bri and Carla. But that was great. :) Who doesn't love nintendo 64, food, and air hockey? Good times. For the rest of my 5 days that was NOT the case. Boring as hell. I actually can't wait to go back to school so i can see all my friends. Yay! Today was ok i suppose... went volunteering at the Red and White club at McMahon stadium. I danced, painted faces and handed out prizes. Yes, i actually CAN face paint. Did a pretty good job too if i do say so myself. I painted a lion face, spiderman, flowers and an assortment of other things. It was so much fun. Jess and I stole like 10 bags of chips at the end ;) Ii was really sad though... they gave away the little flowery necklace i wanted. jess n i were planning on wearing them to schoo n everything :( lol. o well, probably for the best... everyone already knows i'm a dork without doing stuff like that. lol. So ya, i'm off to grab something to eat before babysitting. Bye!!!!!!!!! *hugs*

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 19:30:23 GMT

Long time no chat journal buddies. Lol. It's been hectic with exams n all and i just haven't been motivated to type and share the experience of hell with you all. Stupid exams... I think i failed the first part of my math and if i don't come out of it with an 80 i'm gonna be supremely pissed off cause i had 1 goin into the exam. *growls* Ya, but all my other exams were ok. I hope my french teacher went easy on us for the essay. I flunked that for sure. Who gets a bunch of students who can barely spit out two french words to write an essay on whether or not killing is justifed and under which circumstance? Holy crap that's hard enough to talk about in ENGLISH. Sorry, i'm done being a downer. Everyone's gotta have their rant time tho. Carla came over yesterday n today i gotta do my flyers in the freezing cold. it's like -26 out or something ridiculous. But ya, back to yesterday, we're trying to write a song. the first one i have ever attempted to write actually. I'm sure it'll turn out ok i just gotta figure out how to play it. It's called Last Moment and i really like it. That title was one of many but it was the only one that wasn't laughed off the table so to speak. lol. But ya, Carla came over n we did that n karaoke and ate pizza and it was all really good. It's always cool when she comes over :)neways... I have to study for math and bio today cause i have 2 exams creeping up. Bio is tomorrow and math the day after. THEN I'M DONE!!! But i only get a 2 day break. Everyone else had like 2 exams and the rest of their two weeks off. Out of my 8 day break i will have gotten 2 days off. That sucks ass. But hey, i guess it's better than no days off and it's also better than having those days off but having to study during them. but, i'm off now to go play monopoly. THAT GAME RULES!!! Hope y'all have a good day :D

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 02:29:10 GMT

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...	Seductive
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a cat, longing to be pet
Your Partner Is...	Your best friend
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are their favorite person
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"One must know how to seduce"

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

What a long week. Long time no chat all u ppls out there in cyberspace... went to Gothika w/ carl and bri. It was really good. I was so jumpy though, i hate the sound of screaming... But on a brighter note the WEEKEND HAS ARRIVED and i have soooo much to do. Lets see... do the entire math 30 key, 35 pgs of social, 20 pgs of math from a diff workbook, study for bio, make bio notes as well as practice piano and do flyers. I'm soooooooooooooooooo screwed. Lol, here's another quiz...

I taste like Peanut Butter.

I am one of the most blendable flavours; I go with sweet, I go with sour, I go with bland, I go with anything. I am practical and good company, but have something of a tendency to hang around when I'm not wanted, unaware that my presence is not welcome. What Flavour Are You?

But yes, much to do and very little time to do it in. I hope we don't get anymore dumb projects or i'm gonna run out of time completely. Hopefully this weekend will be a BIT of a break but it seems unlikely. But, i gotta run so i'll talk to u all again later!
P.S. I will be updating my rant journal soon so please check it out. If u want the link just post and ask for it.

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 04:10:07 GMT

This was the LONGEST DAY OF MY LIFE! I did absolutely nothing. We had our math Christmas party today and I can say with complete certainty I have never eaten so much stuff that was bad for me in my life. I had seriously like 15 really big, sour gummy worms, some chips, pop, a gazillion chocolates, 4 candy canes, 2 pieces of pizza and a whole shit load of other candy. I'm so gonna toss my cookies. Yah, but all of the other stuff i did today was like watching movies, partying, and measuring my blood pressure which (despite all the greasy shit i consume) is actually below the maximum/average blood pressure rate and my pulse is about normal. *smiles at Carl* betcha all were dying to find that out. lol. I'm so hyper... i'm gonna explode i bet. But neways... tomorrow's going to be boring as hell but I have to go to get my mom's present. Oh the sacrifices! lol. But the good this is i'm going to a movie with jc. Yay. Twill be fun. But i'm going to go, my brain is full of sugar, not thinking juice so i'm having trouble typing. Bye!

Up and Down and All Around

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 02:01:34 GMT

Twas a busy day. I'm really glad i got my social test over with... essay tomorrow *shudder*

J.C. (jessica cheung): R u studying? (for the essay) I don't think i will... I'm almost finished my math 2. I think, THINK i get it. Hopefully it'll show on the test. enough about school... LORD OF THE RINGS 3 WEDNESDAY. I hope i can go. I have to see if my friend gets her car... I can't wait. But apparently they changed the ending from the book. I haven't read it but i'm sure it'll still be good i'm sure. Yay! holidays coming soon, what are u doing? I'm flying to Nova Scotia where none of my relatives have msn so i'll be talking to u on here n through hotmail. POST, POST, POST. I get NO POSTS LIKE EVER. It makes me sad inside. :( lol. U know what movie i heard was really good? the last samurai. maybe we can go see it sometime if u haven't seen it already. It looks amazing too. But ya, have u done all ure xmas shoppin yet? I still have like a bizillion things to buy: something for my mom n something for my half bro n his gf. *sigh* such a stressful time of the year. But yes...

RECENT DEVELOPEMENTS ALL: I DON'T LEAVE TILL THE 23!!!

Carla how was ure day? I don't wanna call u in case ure busy but i probably will neways after my mom gets off the friggin phone. Lol, aren't i thoughtful? Oh well, if ure busy u can just hang up on me, that's nothing new. *evil eyes* it's practically the same as blocking somebody right? lol. Yesterday was... interesting. I can't believe u went to bed at 10. are u crazy?! u even get to sleep in! lol, but i'm sure u had a lot to do today. Has ure councillor talked to u yet about science? I hope u can drop it, ure FEMALE teacher's a moron. lol. Just like to point out that all teachers that are morons are guys, take Ms. Wade for example. lol. I'm just kidding (not that Ms. Wade is NOT a moron or nething tho). Journal hunting time... i might go look for 1 in nova scotia if we can't go look for 1 b4 i leave. Unless u wanna look together after i get back... lemme know. I hope it all works out, i really wanna work on this w/ u.

Jessih- (Jessica H.)
Welcome to my head! lol. today's more of a conversation w/ all these ppls, if u scroll down tho u can see some o my weirder moments. If u look even more carefully u might be mentioned! can't guarentee positivity but that was a while ago. U know i luv u. ;) lol. Wow, what a stressful week. I hope u have good xmas holidays (with Mark) and i'm really sorry if me telling u that u n mark r gonna break up offended u (which i know it did). My personal opinion, although if u want my present opinions on the future of ure relationship post and ask me. I'll tellu in person tho, not on here. ;) I'm not COMPLETELY cruel... all of the time... lol. Yay! i'm still above 70 in bio... i think i can scrape by, maybe i need u to tutor me, or some1 else if u dont wanna. lol, i can't help it if i'm stupid. Mr. Hertz thinks it's cause i talk too much... what do u think? I think i'm relatively quiet... lmao. I really like ure guys' poster pour francais. It was neato. lol, she was like amazed i did my poster on my own. I felt so proud. Then after u guys left she got pissed 'cause she said i wasn't paying attention but playing games w/missa. Showed her tho, i was the first person to do n example n GETIT RIGHT! I'm gifted i'm tellin ya. Tell me about the watch u got mark? gold, silver, white gold, brand, where u got it from... was he wearing it today? DETAILS! lol. Was that his xmas gift or his b-day gift? It was really nice of u to get him it. He's really good to u tho. Post me back (click on the "What do YOU think?" at the bottom and scroll down till u see an empty box). I'll reply back to u asap.

Devin
I don't know if ure even gonna read this but ure on my friends list so u get a message too. (don't u feel special?) lol. How's it goin? any plans for xmas? u probably have a lot of tests this week, i know a lotta ppl at byrne do. Speaking of Byrne, where were u 4 the dance? i saw u *counts* like 4 times... lol. u just kept dissappearing. once again, i didn't get to talk to u a whole bunch but i was kinda busy floating around n plus u probably had better ppls to talk to than me neways. I hope u had a good time tho. Nemore music recommendations? the last song u suggested was actually pretty good. I'm burning a cd and have a couple more songs i need and i can't find nemore. I woulda asked u on msn but ure never on. neways, if i don't talk to u have a merry christmas n enjoy ure holidays.

Brianne!
Yes, u get a note on here too. I don't talk to u loads but i don't see why not so u get a notice on here too. By the way i have no idea why ure the last person i'm talking to on here but as the saying goes "save the best for last" hehe. How's work with all the shrivlies? lol. Man tho u must make a ton of dough. lucky lucky. what did u ask for 4 xmas? i've been asking a bunch o ppl 'cause i didn't ask for much... i wanted to see if other ppl were having problems asking for stuff too. I dunno, i just don't NEED anything... u know? nething i WANT i get myself. KARAOKE MACHINE *smiles at carla* lol. but ya. U still play n-64? if u do we should get together sometime n play. it's been a while for super smash bros. like 2 years, i'm sure u n carl can still kick my ass tho. lol. Maybe b4 i go carl me n u can do something. hopefully ure guys' working schedules aren't too hectic but i won't get my hopes up. i know what it's like... even tho i don't HAVE a real job. lol. but what haveu been up to lately? school most likely, n work. u got a lotta tests this week? so many ppls do... i don't, just 3. lol. that's pretty well normal tho... to u too in case i don't talk to u (i don't know if u come on here either) but merry xmas n i hope i can get together with u b4 holidays r over!

General:
Wow, i'm in a really good mood today. Yay! life is alllll good. For now neways. I'm gonna change the "format" of my lj if i ever get the chance. maybe i can start up another 1... *note to self* Talk to carla. I wanna do 1 with a whole bunch of headings like in the book "shoulder the sky". I have this problem with reading books n copying their writing ideas... anyways this guy had a website and commented on a whole bunch of stuff. I think it would be fun to rant n comment or even talk about interesting ppl, events n shit. Pollitical and cultural. It would expand my writing horizons. If i can't another lj i'll just put it on here... hope u guys don't get bored... lol. well, ithink that's all for today. I'm gonna go make some calls. Peace all.